Mom, Things I Should Be Able to Ask You But Can’t
10.5 years ago started the endless string of questions that will never be answered. As I lay here physically tired but mentally wide awake the stupid red light on the tv keeps me up. It’s not actually keeping me up, it’s for some reason, triggering my brain.
The red light is staring at me. Reminding me of the past.
I asked you once, why don’t lights shut completely off when you turn them off.
The cable box started it.
The cable box in your room used to keep me up at night. I hated the stupid glow of the numbers.
I couldn’t handle the lights when I went to sleep.
Those nights in your room feel like they were part of a life that belonged to someone else. Someone who was fortunate enough to have a mom.
20 years wasn’t fair.
I know I shouldn’t be complaining. At least I got that. There are so many kids who don’t even get 1.
