This was an absolute pleasure to read, first of all thank you for sharing it.
I lost my mom shortly after my 20th birthday and everything you said there gave me so many emotions. She was my best friend and my everything. The grief I struggled with in the very beginning, by the time I lost my dad four years later I knew how to deal with it a little bit better.
It's never like what they show in media.
Thank you again for sharing your story Sending all of the good vibes possible in your direction.