Lighting Felt Like Coming Home

Amanda Bussman
3 min readJul 26, 2021
Photo by Alexander Dummer on Unsplash

I promised myself accountability so here we go.

Hey there! If you’re new here, welcome. I’m going to point you to this blog where I explained a little bit of what’s going on.

For those who don’t feel like reading more, I am an aspiring filmmaker. Currently, I have the cool opportunity of completing a short film for a fellowship.

This is my journey through that.

One of my plans in this process is to document every part of it. I intend to write these blog posts as well as making youtube videos through it. This is going to be my way of keeping myself going. Perhaps it’ll also give someone out there perspective that they can handle this too.

I haven’t much touched a camera in a couple of years now. I also haven’t played with lighting.

Tonight I got the chance to play with a ring light.

After not having my hands on any sort of film equipment in years, it felt like coming home. I think I’d forgotten just how much I love toying with lighting. Seeing the change on the wall when a bounce light is added.

There is so much that can be done with lighting. If you add a gel you change the entire scene. Moments can be made darker, more dramatic, all by playing with gels. Much of the emotion conveyed in a scene relies on what type of lighting is in the moment. If your film lacks lighting, you can throw off the entire tone.

Of course, I’m nowhere near being ready to play with full-spectrum lighting yet. I still have to cement what I want to do for a script. But even playing with the ring light tonight was an incentive to keep going.

What I was doing tonight was prepping for YouTube. If you’ve been through my account before you know that reviews like this are one of my passions. I love talking about comics. My plan is to set up a youtube account where I can discuss comics.

That account for comic reviews as well as the part of it for the process of this fellowship are my stepping stones.

You see, in the past 5 years since graduating with my BA I’ve lost myself. My passion for creation has given me more trouble than I care to admit.

That is why I’m here.

Documenting this fellowship is my stepping stone to finding my path again. Getting the chance to set up that ring light was the beginning of finding my way.

It’s a small victory, a tiny step of movement, but it’s still a win. Tomorrow my intent is to solidify my setup. I want to be able to light my area in a way that’s going to both be pleasing for viewers and not blind me.

We’re working on this road, we’re going to get there. The next update will come when I have another step complete. When I can document that I’ve made some movement.

Thanks for joining me with this one.

Remember, every step you take toward a goal is progress. No matter how big or small it is, it’s still a step in the right direction.

Amanda Bussman

An aspiring creative writer who is attempting to figure out how to follow my passions and make a living doing so.